Suffocation

Today was one of those days where you just feel that the Gods have got it in for you, that they've decided to have a bit of fun at your expense. I haven't been seeing the funny side of it at all. It's been a miserable day. What should have been a simple task taking no more than an hour has taken me from 8am right through to 1am of the early hours, with just one short break - all down to software tools simply not working as they should, with no indication of why. There is nothing, simply nothing I find more infuriating than commercial software (from companies with billions of dollars at their disposal) telling you that there is an error. Just an error. Full stop. No detail. No help. Today, every method I tried to perform this one task threw up such undefined errors, a brick wall being moved around to block my every move. I got very wound up in my head, to the point where I could no longer think clearly. Eventually I found a way through and then another problem occurred, which actually was relatively easy to understand, but by this point my head was so muddled and mired in paranoia that I kept imagining much more complex issues than what was really involved. To mirror my dark mood, it rained almost all day, out of a uniformly grey sky. It was a muggy, airless day, and that's exactly how I have felt myself: muggy headed. But actually worse than that. I can best describe it by saying that my brain has felt increasingly suffocated all day. It's a horrible feeling.